Here's How I Start

ah!!it was 3 in the morning when i suddenly got up..realising i was still on bed, i started wondering what made me wake up?? not a bad dream(since i couldn't recall), not because of any academic pressure, not because of anything i could guess... seriously i wanted to sleep rather than waking up.

but there was something holding on. i gazed at the ceiling,removed the curtains to c who all in my society are accompanying me n believe me wen i say i started singing lorries to myself. it sounded unrythmic, worse, compared to how sweetly my mom used to sing to me thus started missing my mom. but it wasnt the time to call her and tell her that! i got up, took rounds in my own room, my yawns were kind of assuring me that yes now u can sleep but as soon i lay on bed closed my eyes i couldn't.

again i stood up to struggle..took rounds and started talking to myself what will help me sleep? thought about academics and there was a yawn and i got happy that now i will surely sleep but nope that wasn't it. close to my bed is my radio and that too was singing songs like 'ab ke sawan aise barse' and jiyein to jiyein kaise ,bin aapke' oh !such tragic song to hear.

then came to my mind lets write something, but what? dairy entry??? as m not at all into this task.but then one thing stricked me and this is how i anxiously opened my blog account created 4 years back but left unattended since then.

i am a beginner and really know nothing much as to how to start or end..but there's this feeling that be it anything its my wall and i can write what i feel like.

now what i think about is did my disturbed sleep has initiated me to write develop this skill further? as for now i have decided to look after my blog account. it missed me called me as i missed my mom...:)

oh its been 2 hrs now..and since i feel fresh to sleep i will say gud bye...